can't succeed

for the past couple of months iv bee messin around with my guitar and makin up stuff and rarly, ill play somethin that i really like and ill make it into a song. but whats a song with out words? i try over and over again to wright down what i feel or think but it always come out crappy. and i get pissed off because i cant write meaningful words to this melody thats in my head.you would think that if i could make music then i could write some lyrics to my song. but it never works out the way i want it. it either sounds really dumb or the words dont really fit right. and some times i get wrighters block. i cant even think what to wright about. i dont have a muse and i feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. but if at first you dont succeed try try again, right?

Blue

Blue October is the most amazing band on the face of the earth. Because thier music touches a nerve with alot of people that other bands just cant reach. I think its mainly because he says whats real and he doesnt bullshit his way through a song. all of his songs come from things hes went through like drug addiction and child hood problems. some subjects that other bands are afraid to touch on. he puts it out thier and if you dont like well then you dont, but the thing is, is that you even if you dont like the music you still have to take into consideration that his songs come from shit that happened top him. hes not afraid to let it all go. he sings so that he can let all of his problems go. and i think if you can do that than its pretty fuckin amazing.

My first

well this is my first blog, iv never really had a blog before....But all the "cool kids" are doin it so what the hell. ummm, School sucks like always. It licks balls, my school is filled with gheto people and alot of them really get on my nerves, because half the time i really cant understand what thier saying. so when they talk to me i just knod my head and smile and occasionaly ill throw in a little laugh, just to make sure i wont get my ass kicked. i have two Lesbian teachers that are the apidimy od butch. I mean these teachers cant get any gayer than they already are. and they both hate me with a passion one of them moved me to the front of the room even though i have like a 90 somthin in her class i get all my work done on time and im a pretty good student. maybe its because im a guy and she doesnt like guys. oh well what can u do eh? well i have to go work out (really im am goin to work out) so peace

-josh